can we start over?
i believe we can.
We can make it if we can.

the world is my apple I jsut have to eat it.

I will live in a great loft with large windows, in a fabulous location, exposed brick walls, lots of space, grand ceilings, wood or lamnet floors.
I will have a lovely country home. cosy but with a grand library, fitness facility or sauna, steam room, indoor pool whirlpool and woodfloors and high ceilings.
I will be able to live off my art. My art change how people think, it will make an impact. My art will be valuable to mankind.
I will beable to care for my parents.
I will love and be loved sincerly and truthfully.
I will be accomplished in Kendo. I will make my sensei proud. I will suceed.
I will be fit. I am lovely.
I will be healthy, happy and carefree. I will live long and well.
I must have faith in it.
The things I want in life as I now realize. I can have now.
This is my messsge to the universe, this is my shopping list.
I now entrust the world to manifest my heart's creations.
I will continue to live as I should and head towards these goals.
The pieces will all fit together as they should.

maybe I'm ready

I think that i'm ready. I think he's ready.

I think its jsut a matter of me finishing school.

Maybe, he could be in seattle and i'll be in vancouver.
the would work.

I can do this.

Nobody knows me..

This is for me.

This is for those things that I began to do for myself.

The day I picked up a shinai was the same day I picked up the paintbrush again.
I truely believe that this is for me.

I don't ever talk about it much with my family, somehow I fear I may lose its meaning to me if I do.
Perhaps becasue I would not want to dissapoint them if they began to be supportive.

Either way, this is my secret garden where I learn to grow. Then one day when I believe I can live forever I will run out of its walls and shout it out to the world.

Up until now we've just all been pretending.