number one on my list

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little girls, not your time yet.

something mellow, to go with this weather

losing control

I can feel it. its harder to control my body, day by day i can feel it.
I train, I want to have that kind of control over my mucles.
It was getting easier, but now, i'm stuck.
progress is slow.
My mind and spirit have broken through barriers that i never thought i'd find.
But my body is still falling behind.
I can't stop the rythm.
But I need to play a differnt melody.

Terms

I don't know whenn its going to heppen, when life's going to turn and confront you... when death will confront you.
Can you keep your focus and your calm when the apocolypse starts raining down from the sky?
At any moment it can mean your life, it can mean someone else's life.
Will you be ready?
Can you reach into your spirit and find that strength that demands you to choose to fight?
Can you define life? death? without having had that expereince?
When the the time comes will you be focused? will you be calm? will you will your fight?
Death, is inevitable, surviving life is optional, living life is not gauranteed.
So when that moment in life call upon your strength, your spirit..
can you reach deep enough inside to face life, face death, look them square in the eye and say
"I'll let you take me, but only on my terms"

Even if its just a bittersweet thing i feel for now..

you might never find out, but a girl needs to feel like this sometimes.
Thats whats been missing for so long, I've given this up for something logical, something functional... and in the end, this was where i was looking to end up.

* 靠近一点点 - Lara


再靠近一点点

默默在你的身后 守侯的我
多想看你不经意的笑容
或许我的心你不懂
我会努力让你感动
在你眼中有多么笨拙的我
决不放弃追逐你的执著
只要你能再多些回应我
一个笑 或点头 全接受
能不能再靠近一点点
大声说出你所有感觉
别再紧紧关在 只有自己的世界
温暖太阳为你迎接
能不能再靠近一点点
能不能再勇敢一点点
就算让我知道 我永远只是单恋
我也会藏着感谢 笑着和你说再见

想

多一些精神與衝動
去做一些愚蠢的事

活的簡單一點

愛的幸福一點